Sometimes questions others challenge you with echo in your head until you find an answer. No matter how confident you are, you still find it important to provide good argument as an answer to a challenge. Sometimes for others sometimes to yourself.

I have a lot of things in the way I live my life that are based on gut feelings. I often cant explain why I think things are right, I just feel they are. All these contrudictory questions.. Should I be honest or care about not hurting others' feelings? Should I be investing in the future or enjoyin the present?
Should I make an effort or let things happen/come/go?

People keep challenging me and I keep looking for answers.. Is it even important to waste time looking for an answer (maybe only to explain to other why) or maybe trust yourself and go on living the life that I choose to live? I would choose second. But somehow in the moment of doubt it's important to know WHY. And the moments of doubt happen. As well as not being able to think clear under pressure of things. So as for any of the questions above - there's gotta be a balance :) I guess.

Anyway. Lately I've been facing another challenge in my head. Some people 've been challenging my way of turning things positive or looking at the brighter side. They called it faking, not following your inner emotions, covering them, pretending, not letting emotions out. You probably at least one time in your life thought about someone - "Oh, come on, you cant be all that bright and shiny. No tell me what you really think!". I used to think so myself, until now I actually belive people can be sincere about all these. Sometimes in the morning, I wake up and just when the thought of "it's 7 am, why do I have to work?! Oh I wish I had an extra hour to sleep.what a bad beginning of the bad day." comes into my sleepy head, I think of the way this day will be beautiful and energetic and I am going to do a lot of great stuffs :) Not because I pretend it, but because I know that negative emotions come as response to things, which not necessarily have to bring negative emotions, but based on traditions/opinions/previous expereinces we think it has to. It’s the culture created for us, or the one we created earlier in our lives. But its up to me to create my own culture now, where mornings mean the beginning of soemthing great, not the end of sleeping happiness.

What made you upset yestoday? Did it really had to make you feel that way?

Have an awesome day today people :)